I'm Not A Perfect Person

cateju4 @ 2004-08-19T23:06:00

2004-08-20T04:06:54Z

Muwhahahaha!!!

I don't know what to do anymore..

2004-07-22T06:08:58Z

I can hear You calling In a whisper
You say so much
In a dream I'm falling
But I awaken within Your love and I find You waiting
I find You, arms stretching open
My will is breaking
Lord, I've had enough ... I'm giving it up
So let Your love
Take my heart make it strong
Take my life from now on I'm running out of hope
Running out of strength
So let Your love take over me I have been unchanging
I have seen my world spinning by
Only You can save me
From the foolishness of my pride, so
Come find me waiting
Come find me, heart reaching upward
My will is fading
Lord, I've had enough ... I'm giving me up
Come and find me waiting
Come and make me strong
Come and lead me on
Come set my heart free
Come and take me over.

I hate this.

cateju4 @ 2004-07-03T22:32:00

2004-07-04T03:32:45Z

cateju4 @ 2004-06-22T11:49:00

2004-06-22T16:49:31Z

cateju4 @ 2004-06-20T00:59:00

2004-06-20T05:59:42Z

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	90% Never taken out of the packaging	65.1%
Shamelessness	95.2% Has yet to see self in mirror	79.4%
Sex Drive	97.4% The Pope is envious	77.7%
Straightness	92.9% Just go fuck something, okay?	44.9%
Gayness	100%	83.6%
Fucking Sick	97.3% Refreshingly normal	90%
You are 92.07% pure Average Score: 72.7%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up!

The usernames are old but, still funny :)

2004-06-17T04:18:30Z

cateju4 @ 2004-06-08T15:00:00

2004-06-08T20:01:03Z

C	Careful
A	Appreciative
T	Tender
E	Exciting

Name Acronym Generator
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Fun fun...I can't get enough of these things. :)

cateju4 @ 2004-06-08T14:56:00

2004-06-08T19:56:57Z

UCAUTION

IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP CATEJU4 AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES.

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I am a pyro, what can I say? :)

cateju4 @ 2004-06-07T19:28:00

2004-06-08T00:29:04Z

Cateju4's LJ stalker is emchriquirpa!

emchriquirpa is stalking you because they heard you are awesome in bed, and they want to find out. They are also getting with your significant other!

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Haha...right, like anyone else could even handle Jeremiah.

cateju4 @ 2004-05-30T15:12:00

2004-05-30T20:15:46Z

*sighs* Jeremy and I got into a huge argument the other day. I hate fighting with him, it's the last thing I like doing. I love him so much it hurts. We get so evil when we fight with eachother, I hate that. I hope he knows that he's the only one for me, and always will be.

cateju4 @ 2004-05-07T22:16:00

2004-05-08T03:20:51Z

It's been awhile since I've updated this thing. Well, I offically have all of my things moved into Jeremy's house. I guess you never really realize how many things you actually own until you have to put them all in boxes and move them around. He is a tremendous help with lifting heavy things though :) I don't really know what else to say except that, I love you Jeremy :) And um...oh yeah! Your icon is evil looking. Hehe I like it!

cateju4 @ 2004-04-20T21:51:00

2004-04-21T02:52:12Z

Stolen from Lance..

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

Don't Waste Your Time On Me...

2004-04-07T20:05:54Z

*sighs* I don't know how many people know this already or how fast the word has spread, but yes, Lance and I have offically broken up. And to the dismay of a certain someone, I was not the one who broke it off. Lance actually came to me and said it was time. I want him happy, and if that's not with me I need to accept that. He's an awesome guy and like I said before, he deserves an awesome girl. I hope you find her Lance, you deserve it.

cateju4 @ 2004-04-05T11:41:00

2004-04-05T16:41:44Z

I don't know if anyone will fill this thing out or not, but it's worth a try. Have fun :)

01. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
02. Am I loveable?
03. How long have you known me?
04. When and where did we first meet?
05. What was your first impression?
06. Do you still think that way about me now?
07. What do you think my weakness is?
08. Do you think I'll ever get married or divorced?
09. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. What is my best quality?
13. How well do you think you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think that I could kill someone?
17. Who would play me in a movie?
18. If I were to be a color, what one would I be?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
21. Do you think that I am stubborn?
22. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

[1] When and how did we meet:
[2] What did you first notice about me:
[3] What do you like most about me:
[4] Are we friends:
[5] Have you ever seen me with my shirt off:
[6] Have you ever seen me cry:
[7] Describe me in four adjectives:
[8] If we could spend a day together what would we do:
[9] Have we ever gotten in a fight:
[10] If you could give me a present what would it be:
[11] Would you hug me:
[12] What do you really think of me:
[13] Have we ever kissed:
[14] Has there ever been anything you wanted to tell me, but were scared to:
[15] Wanna makeout:
[16] Is there anything you dont like about me:
[17] What makes you think of me:
[18] Whats your name:
[19] Am I nice to you:
[20] Who do I look like:
[21] Whats one thing you would change about me:
[22] Am I attractive:
[23] Would I look good in black:
[24] Do you have a secret to tell me, and you were to scared to tell me about:
[25] Am I a good person:
[26] Name one thing you would do for/to me:
[27] Do you like me:
[28] Whats one thing about my image you like:
[29] Have we ever dated:
[30] Should we date:

cateju4 @ 2004-04-03T23:57:00

2004-04-04T06:01:38Z

I know I posted these lyrics before, but they have a whole new meaning as of now. It describes everything that is going on....and so much more. (My comments on the side)

I'm not a perfect person (By no means)
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you (You know I would take them back in a heartbeat)
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be (Though, I know you liked the old me, the new me is going to be so much better)
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you (I love you)

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday (It'll always bother me, but I'll learn to deal with it, and each day with you makes it better)
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away (You know I would)
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know (I have many sides :) but you know that)
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

I love you.

cateju4 @ 2004-04-02T15:16:00

2004-04-02T21:18:58Z

*sighs* Lance left. He's gone. I told him I was leaving the house too but...after he left last night I just crawled back up to our room and cried. I tried to make this work, I really did. Lance is a great guy and he deserves someone a great girl. But, I don't think that can be me anymore. I guess we have come to terms and have started to realize that maybe, we aren't as good for eachother as we orginally thought we were.

Lance, if you read this, let me know how Mississippi is. I hope you're doing alright.

cateju4 @ 2004-04-01T15:19:00

2004-04-01T21:29:52Z

nine facts about you:
1. I was born in November
2. I have a fat black dog named Tanya, though I renamed her Fatty
3. I am a child at heart
4. I am in love with Gloria Jean's Cookie Monsters
5. I snore lightly
6. I hate artifical banana flavoring
7. I dance like a crazy person
8. I like to sleep
9. I have ugly feet

eight albums in your collection that you can't get sick of:
1. Hoobastank
2. Savage Garden
3. Evanescene
4. Melissa Ethridge
5. Justin Timberlake
6. Avril Lavigne
7. Van Halen
8. Liz Phair

seven people you love:
At the moment ;
1. Petey
2. Lance
3. Jenn
4. Gale
5. Randy
6. Kelly
7. Z

six things you dislike:
1. mean people
2. drugs
3. alcohol
4. onions
5. Peppers
6. spiders

five things on your desk right now:
1. Phone
2. Paper
3. candle
4. paperweights
5. cd's

four bands/musicians that everyone should listen to:
1. Evanescene
2. Hoobastank
3. Savage Garden
4. Van Halen

three things that attract you to a person:
1. Sense of humor
2. Point of view
3. How they carry themselves

two things you'd like to learn:
1. How to cook
2. How to draw

cateju4 @ 2004-03-30T15:24:00

2004-03-30T21:29:26Z

I don't get this, I don't get at all. Why does every relationship I have to be in start so perfect, and always ends up a big mess? I honestly thought that this was going to be different, I had a whole new attitude about it. A whole new attitude about everything. Why is he making it look like I'm the one that wanted to rush everything along? *sighs* I'm so sick of fighting, of disagreeing, of not talking. Why does it have to be this way? Why can't we talk about it? Why did you say we couldn't work things out this time? Answer me that.

cateju4 @ 2004-03-29T16:31:00

2004-03-29T22:36:55Z

::1:: Name? Caitlin
::2:: Nicknames? Cate, Catie, C, Kiddo
::3:: Age? 21
::4:: Eye colour? hazel
::5:: Hair colour? blonde with light blonde and light auburn highlights
::6:: What are you wearing right now? black dance pants and blue pom and dance sweatshirt

~Favourites~
::7:: Breakfast? Corn beef hash
::8:: Lunch? Subway
::9:: Dinner? Subway lol I'm a fiend!
::10:: Type of Music? Rock, Pop, Rap...anything
::11:: T.V. show? Queer As Folk, The O.C.
::12:: Movie? 10 Things I Hate About You, Romey and Michelle's High School Reunion
::13:: Book? The Secret Window
::14:: Video Game? Donkey Kong
::15:: Drink? Mt.Dew, Water, Lemonade
::16:: Fruit? Pineapple
::17:: Veggie? carrots, pickles

~This or That~
::18:: Boxers or Briefs? Boxers, or boxerbriefs
::19:: Abercrombie or Gap? Abercrombie
::20:: Adidas or Nike? Adidas
::21:: Pepsi or Coke? Pepsi
::22:: Tee or Tank Top? Tee
::23:: Tea or Coffee? Neither, Gloria Jean's cookie monster
::24:: Salt or Pepper? Pepper
::25:: Apple or Orange? orange
::26:: Skirt or Dress? skirt

~Love~
::27:: Do you have a boyfriend/Girlfriend? yeah
::28:: If so, how long have you been going out for? hmm..2 and a half months?
::29:: Who do you have a crush on? Um..Randy lol
::30:: Does your crush like you? Maybe
::31:: What do you notice first about the opposite sex (or same sex if thats your thing)? eyebrows and eyelashes
::32:: First Kiss? I was 11
::33:: First crush? Paul in third grade
::34:: First boyfriend? First REAL boyfriend..Travis
::35:: Where was your first date? The football game, lol he was playing

~Just Questions~
::36:: What are you doing? filling this out
::37:: Last thing you read? My journal
::38:: Do you have any kids? nope
::39:: What time is it? 4:36pm
::40:: How long has it taken you to fill this out so far? uhhh...
::41:: Do you consider yourself Pretty? Sometimes
::42:: A good singer? eh...
::43:: Actress? Hehe
::44:: Are you tall? Oh yeah
::45:: Short? Nope
::46:: How many CD's do you own? a lot
::47:: What's on your mouse pad? palm trees
::48:: Do you ever get off the damn computer? Yep
::49:: Do you like filling out these surveys? they're fun
::50:: Are you glad this survey is over? yeah

cateju4 @ 2004-03-28T13:56:00

2004-03-28T19:57:11Z

You are Justin Taylor!

Which Randy Harrison are you?
brought to you by Quizilla</font Hehe. That's cute.

cateju4 @ 2004-03-23T21:09:00

2004-03-24T03:13:57Z

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me

To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

cateju4 @ 2004-03-20T23:10:00

2004-03-21T05:13:26Z

I don't know what I am suppose to feel anymore. I hate feeling like I'm not allowed to know what's going on in my own life, if that makes sense to anyone. I just want to scream. I hate it when people tell me one thing and then they go ahead and do the other, especially people that I really care about. This whole week seems like it has been so fucked up. I'm so sick and tired of all this crap.

cateju4 @ 2004-03-13T12:20:00

2004-03-13T18:25:27Z

What a week this has turned out to be. So many different things all happening at once. I feel like a big blob of emtions. Lance asked me to move in with him, and I really want too. It's a big step and everything and I just hope he can find room for all of my junk. I do have quite a lot of it. *sighs*

Jeremy came back. I was suprised to see him at Bev's party. It was so nice to just talk with him again, he is such a great guy and I know he will find the perfect girl all in good time :)

Kelly and Benji are FINALLY together :) I am very happy for them despite what others might say or think. Kel is awesome and I love her to death. She's a great friend and she's always there when I need someone to lend an ear.

Finally....JENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN I miss you!

cateju4 @ 2004-03-06T11:00:00

2004-03-06T17:02:29Z

*tiptoes into Lance's office, shutting the door behind me quietly to make sure I don't wake him* *smiles* Last night Lance and got to spend some time together. I think I realized how much I care for him, how much I love him last night. I think we have finally reached that point in a relationship were you realize, "This is it. I don't want to be with anyone else." :) I am so blessed to have him in my life.

cateju4 @ 2004-02-25T11:29:00

2004-02-25T17:30:42Z

This house is so empty and cold when your all by yourself in it. I miss Lance. I always do. That's nothing new. I can't wait to see him again. I feel like we haven't spent any real quality time with eachother in a long time. I know he's busy, and I understand all of that completely. I just hope I get to see him soon.

What The Hell Happened Last Night?
LJ Username
What did you drink?
You wake up in the morning next to:	dreamin4ldw
...who is wearing:	a Strongbad costume
...and rolls over to you to say:	wait a moment... you said you were 16 on AIM!
...and then:	tweaks your nipples

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